Justin Bieber Says the First Year of His Marriage to Hailey Baldwin 'Was Really Tough'

Justin Bieber and Hailey Baldwin tied the knot in September 2018 at a New York City courthouse before hosting a larger second wedding ceremony a year later in South Carolina

Justin Bieber is opening up about the ups and downs of marriage.

While gracing the cover of GQ's May issue, the 27-year-old singer recounted low points in his life that were caused by his own personal struggles and how his wife of two and half years, Hailey Baldwin, helped him out of those dark moments.

Describing himself to the outlet as someone who was always "compelled" to get married, Bieber said, "I just felt like that was my calling. Just to get married and have babies and do that whole thing." (As for babies for himself and Baldwin, 24, the "Love Yourself crooner said, "Not this second, but we will eventually.")

"The first year of marriage was really tough because there was a lot going back to the trauma. There was just a lack of trust," he said. "There was all these things that you don't want to admit to the person that you're with, because it's scary. You don't want to scare them off by saying, 'I'm scared.'"

Bieber and Baldwin tied the knot in September 2018 at a New York City courthouse, just two months after getting engaged in the Bahamas that July.

"They went ahead and did it without listening to anyone," a source close to the couple told PEOPLE at the time.